HI all..

i am gonna start my blog again.. this time rought will start to add pictures and stuff already ..k.. i just bought the new LG phone heeehheee... kkk so wait for the next post for more exciting shit haha

talked more trash @ 1:09 AM

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kk then nvm sat got windsurfing then very happy... heh... so aloy drove us down ... since he is doing canversing at east coast park heh... so bo liaoz haha help pple wash car then not your money heh... but can earn quite alot hahaha... heh

then after i come out of the car then ... ahhhhh i forgot to take my wallet... left my wallet in his car... then have to walk bloody long distance to the car washing area.... luckily got Yin lan.. if not jia lat... heh..

then went on proceed to windsurf.. guess wat...?... i kena stranded and no one come to save ME....ahhh then i have to swim to shore to get help.... very jia lat.... due to being still a noob at windsurfing.... i strain my back alittle cause my posture not good... heh my practise alot more timessss..... heh means more $$$$

talked more trash @ 11:07 PM

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hey ya .. i have finally managed to go back on track to my mugging mode... hurray........ dam happy ... and i realised that wat happened that cause me go out of track and the reason IS the SPecial one...

cause i have been studying with her ... gotten used to having her by my side.... so when she wasnt around me ... i realised that i couldnt study at all.... heh... but now thanks to teresa, jiadi and joanne ... i think i can study better liaoz...

thanks to you pple... i feel more relax now... thank you.. dun think u all will ever get to see this .. but thank u ... heh

talked more trash @ 6:36 PM

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hey thank you , teresa , jiadi and joanne for asking me to play mahjong ....
heh it helped me to relax lol... heh thought i am a slow player heh...... sorry bout tt and haha i make u all sad... u all make big big then i hu one tai... haha.... sad right?... heh.. not many people know that this blog is back to function heh... kkk.. good good ... heh ... good nightz...

talked more trash @ 12:00 AM

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HEy peeps, i am back.... reason i am back?..... i am totally stressed out... wat i wanna do .. cant be done,.. wat i sacrificed for never really happen.. wat on earth is happening .... i really dunno wat to do at timess......... Loneliness is really the nightmare of all humans... guess perhaps i have shun too many pple out of my life... I dunno....

Guess i will skip my two years of hardship in army, those days passed real soon... and if to blog on them i think it will take yearsss.s....... heh

right now i just wanna blog on my days in NTU till now..

dunno how to phrase it but here goes.... when i stepped into NTU I have this motivation to drive me to study hard,... and i told myself to give up all those activities that i used to enjoy much when i was in poly. and till now I really Did... i was a super OFF KIA ,.. heh ... anyevent or so i just not go one... for wat? just to study... but then i realised that that shouldnt be the case... if like tt i would be dam crazy..... dam bored... dam NO life... however when sch work start pileing and piling up... it really become like tt....

then recently I got to know many many people. there's this someone that I and her were very close and i actually shun myself away from her ... during sch days... what i had in mind was that i was afraid that i couldnt give her the time and the care she needs. A relationship to me is a committment. and i was really afraid that my results will drop. Naturally the girl start to keep herself away from me too.. if not wrong alot of guys are also chasing after her.

then as she kept herself away from me... I start to have this regret and longing for her... I hated this feeling... this made me couldnt really concentrate and such... then i started to get close to her.. but it was too late... all was in vain.... I couldnt forgive myself that i have given away a golden opportunity..... Ihated myself... so wat's being good at books... ya relationship is a total mess ... wat's the point..... KKK I think I have fallen for her.... IS that a good thing???.. I dunno...

Cause of this reaason I am dam tired... dam pissed... and i cant concentrate... think i need to reformat my brain... forget her... and reload a new program.....

ONE thing i HATE bout myself is that I fall in LOVE TOO easily... i cant control my emotions well... and i end up hurting pple or hurting my self.... one thing is i took things for granted thinking that if things stay this way this time , it should stay the same as it would the next time...........................


Thank god ... i have got this place to throw all my sorrows and complaints here.... ya..... if u know who i am talking bout please keep it to your self k... i have already enough headaches to handle..... and sick pple will always say rubbish heh ...

talked more trash @ 5:20 PM

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hmm i would say that last week is one of my xiongest week...

Finally cleared my swing trainer... cant swing for F*** man... jia lat ar... need to train up on my arm power... realised that able to do 20 chim ups.. is not enough... and doesnt really mean that u can do swing trainer...

finally after the 2nd run down... was able to clear it... wahha that run down really made my moral rise up... never before i felt so better... however my timing is still very slow... 1051...
can i hit below 9?.. tt's my company's stand.. below 9... tt's like 2 mins away from my timing............................ can i do it???

well nice meeting kristine... enjoyed talking to her... very long never meet up liaoz...

well peeps... just wanna meet u pple and trying to remain in contact as me in army.. is no life one.. i dun wanna lose any precious friend... tt's about all..

talked more trash @ 4:02 PM

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fallen sick.. dying.. struggling to survive .. tough .. almost given up during the 4 km road march.. dunno why... its only 4 km and i feel like dying already..

really ... sometimes i feel like giving up.... wat for ... suffer so much for just one black bar on my shoulder ... and tthe responsiblity is like shit,,.... how and i gonna carry on???/

if i can even handle 4 km .. how am i gonna handle 24 km...
and all this xiong soc run down... soc is really killing me.... guess i need to do lots and lots of trainign.... m,y arms are weak,... though i can do pull ups... its not helping me in my swing trainer.,....

how ... somebody please help me....

i guess choosing to be a commander is the wrong step that i had ever took ... surely one of the biggest mistakes...

hmm think Lt john is very good lor... willing to go out with the section... hmmm like that then will be more fun mah....

wahaha sianz ar.. for my patrol field camp... i kena IC... sianz... shit lar... dun like to be come section comander... all those about leading and what crap... actually i think leadship is really born in you... if u have it ,. u have it,... not really something which u can learn. and i dun think i have the real leadership qualities,.. i am weak... jia liang is weajk,.... therefore he;s struggling....

6 more weeks... can i pass my soc?....6 more weeks... platoon field camp.. the molst xiong of all... . 6 more weeks social night.. can i find a date in time/?... 6 more weeks.. 3 white bar.. will i be ready to handle the 3 white bar?... 6 more weeks 24 km road march/....

in 6 weeks time so many things are gonna happen... will i be fit ... can i handle it????...

talked more trash @ 2:59 PM

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Survived .... finally survived the field camp...

wahaha field camp sux sia... suffered from blisters... abrasions... worse... heat rash... niothing can ever beat the pain of heat rash...

hmm more and more things i had discovered about my section... well i realised that everyone of us has his weakness and powers,... some are strong in mental some strong in motivating and some strong in jokes...

hmm well i had realised that my buddy is indeed a very funny and humorous guy as long as when he is not stress and especially when he is out of camp... very extreme behaviours when in and out of camp.... totally surprized...

well finally got to meet my batch pple...from adventurers .....very long never see marina, zewei and hs .. hmmmmfinally can get to talk to them... quite nice ar... however got to go see zorro the movie... hmm the movie sux ar.. more for kids... but the kid in the movie was very cute... heh...


tired.... gotta book in soon liaoz...but very soon can come out again../.

talked more trash @ 5:16 PM

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