fallen sick.. dying.. struggling to survive .. tough .. almost given up during the 4 km road march.. dunno why... its only 4 km and i feel like dying already..

really ... sometimes i feel like giving up.... wat for ... suffer so much for just one black bar on my shoulder ... and tthe responsiblity is like shit,,.... how and i gonna carry on???/

if i can even handle 4 km .. how am i gonna handle 24 km...
and all this xiong soc run down... soc is really killing me.... guess i need to do lots and lots of trainign.... m,y arms are weak,... though i can do pull ups... its not helping me in my swing trainer.,....

how ... somebody please help me....

i guess choosing to be a commander is the wrong step that i had ever took ... surely one of the biggest mistakes...

hmm think Lt john is very good lor... willing to go out with the section... hmmm like that then will be more fun mah....

wahaha sianz ar.. for my patrol field camp... i kena IC... sianz... shit lar... dun like to be come section comander... all those about leading and what crap... actually i think leadship is really born in you... if u have it ,. u have it,... not really something which u can learn. and i dun think i have the real leadership qualities,.. i am weak... jia liang is weajk,.... therefore he;s struggling....

6 more weeks... can i pass my soc?....6 more weeks... platoon field camp.. the molst xiong of all... . 6 more weeks social night.. can i find a date in time/?... 6 more weeks.. 3 white bar.. will i be ready to handle the 3 white bar?... 6 more weeks 24 km road march/....

in 6 weeks time so many things are gonna happen... will i be fit ... can i handle it????...

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