let's start from sat... heh friday night couldnt sleep at all so was like awake the whole night..... urg... all due to my roomie lar... just when i was about to enter into deep sleep, he woke me up and ask me to find his phone!! then after tt i cannot fall asleep liaoz... Argggg
kk then nvm sat got windsurfing then very happy... heh... so aloy drove us down ... since he is doing canversing at east coast park heh... so bo liaoz haha help pple wash car then not your money heh... but can earn quite alot hahaha... heh
then after i come out of the car then ... ahhhhh i forgot to take my wallet... left my wallet in his car... then have to walk bloody long distance to the car washing area.... luckily got Yin lan.. if not jia lat... heh..
then went on proceed to windsurf.. guess wat...?... i kena stranded and no one come to save ME....ahhh then i have to swim to shore to get help.... very jia lat.... due to being still a noob at windsurfing.... i strain my back alittle cause my posture not good... heh my practise alot more timessss..... heh means more $$$$
heh let's talk bout today.... wahhaa went out with soke hwa , liqi and jie sheng... wahha is it my communication problem or wat/?... we turn up at the wrong place.... i went to vivo, they went to PS..... wahhaha luckily still near... heh
wat's worse is my wallet burn a super big hole......... lunch go to the da xiao er... then dinner more jia lat.. go to the vivo crystal jade.. wahaha that crystal jade is high class one lol... different from the rest... heh wahaha one chicken drum stick 10 dollars... then we dam suay lar.. the peanuts got hair, then soke hwa order the noodle also got hair.... heh then they feel guilty then they give us ice cream mua chee... heh
haiz the soke hwa lar.. later we went back to pasta mania and order ,... wahah eat until dam fullheh then we play stupid game ... heh
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11:07 PM
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hey ya .. i have finally managed to go back on track to my mugging mode... hurray........ dam happy ... and i realised that wat happened that cause me go out of track and the reason IS the SPecial one...
cause i have been studying with her ... gotten used to having her by my side.... so when she wasnt around me ... i realised that i couldnt study at all.... heh... but now thanks to teresa, jiadi and joanne ... i think i can study better liaoz...
thanks to you pple... i feel more relax now... thank you.. dun think u all will ever get to see this .. but thank u ... heh
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6:36 PM
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hey thank you , teresa , jiadi and joanne for asking me to play mahjong ....
heh it helped me to relax lol... heh thought i am a slow player heh...... sorry bout tt and haha i make u all sad... u all make big big then i hu one tai... haha.... sad right?... heh.. not many people know that this blog is back to function heh... kkk.. good good ... heh ... good nightz...
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12:00 AM
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HEy peeps, i am back.... reason i am back?..... i am totally stressed out... wat i wanna do .. cant be done,.. wat i sacrificed for never really happen.. wat on earth is happening .... i really dunno wat to do at timess......... Loneliness is really the nightmare of all humans... guess perhaps i have shun too many pple out of my life... I dunno....
Guess i will skip my two years of hardship in army, those days passed real soon... and if to blog on them i think it will take yearsss.s....... heh
right now i just wanna blog on my days in NTU till now..
dunno how to phrase it but here goes.... when i stepped into NTU I have this motivation to drive me to study hard,... and i told myself to give up all those activities that i used to enjoy much when i was in poly. and till now I really Did... i was a super OFF KIA ,.. heh ... anyevent or so i just not go one... for wat? just to study... but then i realised that that shouldnt be the case... if like tt i would be dam crazy..... dam bored... dam NO life... however when sch work start pileing and piling up... it really become like tt....
then recently I got to know many many people. there's this someone that I and her were very close and i actually shun myself away from her ... during sch days... what i had in mind was that i was afraid that i couldnt give her the time and the care she needs. A relationship to me is a committment. and i was really afraid that my results will drop. Naturally the girl start to keep herself away from me too.. if not wrong alot of guys are also chasing after her.
then as she kept herself away from me... I start to have this regret and longing for her... I hated this feeling... this made me couldnt really concentrate and such... then i started to get close to her.. but it was too late... all was in vain.... I couldnt forgive myself that i have given away a golden opportunity..... Ihated myself... so wat's being good at books... ya relationship is a total mess ... wat's the point..... KKK I think I have fallen for her.... IS that a good thing???.. I dunno...
Cause of this reaason I am dam tired... dam pissed... and i cant concentrate... think i need to reformat my brain... forget her... and reload a new program.....
ONE thing i HATE bout myself is that I fall in LOVE TOO easily... i cant control my emotions well... and i end up hurting pple or hurting my self.... one thing is i took things for granted thinking that if things stay this way this time , it should stay the same as it would the next time...........................
Thank god ... i have got this place to throw all my sorrows and complaints here.... ya..... if u know who i am talking bout please keep it to your self k... i have already enough headaches to handle..... and sick pple will always say rubbish heh ...
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5:20 PM
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